I might be committing to a part-time writing job, and it makes me nervous. Why? What is the deal? Here's the deal.
I knew from the beginning of my professional writing career that I wanted to be an editor.
I have only finished (to the very last word) ONE novel. (Though, to my credit, I have written substantial chunks of another four.)
When I took Writing Short Stories in undergrad, I waited until the day before the short story was due to sit down and write it.
When I worked at Boyd Street magazine, I hated writing feature stories. This is a major confession. I hated writing them...until I started writing them. And then I loved it.
When I started that short story, I loved it.
When I sit down to write, I love it.
It's getting there that is the problem.
On the other hand, when I'm given somebody else's project to work on, I can't wait to get to the computer and work on it. I want to shut up my children, lock them away. I want to work!
So here I am being offered a writing job, and I'm terrified to say yes. I'm uncomfortable. What if I don't want to sit down and write these projects?
I just need to remember that when I actually do it, I love it. When I actually am writing, I love it. I will keep repeating this to myself.